Monday, October 11, 2010

inspiring quotes

just a few quotes I found to be inspiring and have helped me out a time or two.

  • Always forgive your enemies, nothing bugs them so much. Oscar Wilde
  • Man is least himself when he talks in his own person, give him a mask, and he'll tell you the truth. Oscar Wilde
  • The weak can never forgive, Forgiveness is an attribute of the strong. Ghandi
  • The farther behind I leave my own past, the closer I am to forging my own character. Isabelle Eberhardt
  • When a character of a man is not clear to you, look at his friends. Japanese Proverb
  • You see things that are and say," Why?" and I dream things that never were and say ,"why not?" George Bernard Shaw
  • We do not change as we grow older, we just become more clearly ourselves. Lynn Hall
  • God gives every bird it's food, but He does not throw it into it's nest. J.G. Holland
  • Courage is doing what you are afraid to do. There is no courage unless you are scared.  Eddie Rickenbacker

I hope you can read these and can be inspired as well. I have been having a bit of a creative block lately. I guess I have so many things going through my mind, I am having a hard time concentrating on one thing long enough to actually write about it. I do think that we should utilize quotes from others to help put some perspective in our own lives. Enjoy them and look up your own......sometimes they can end up being the very thing you needed to understand your life at that moment!


 

Saturday, October 9, 2010

to whom this may concern

*disclaimer: before you read this, know that I am writing this to a specific person. Someone who is a very bad person. Please understand that these harsh yet sincere feelings that are being revealed are towards that one person......as a way to just get it all out. To understand my own feelings so i can begin to deal with them. To help those I love to heal........



To Whom it May concern:

You will never read this. I am not sure I am happy or upset about that. Actually I am not happy with that fact. I WANT you to read this. I want it to seep into your very core. I want my words to hurt your soul. To rip you to shreds emotionally. I want my thoughts about you to push you to your breaking point. This is a hard thing for me because I am not normally a hateful person. I, actually, have tried to live by the golden rule, which you obviously do not know.

Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. What you did....the incomprehensable things you did...to the person I love make it so very hard for me to be nice towards you even if I am not around you ever. I dislike you even more, on top of the things you did to my loved one, because you have made this ugly emotion rise into my heart. I have been disgusted with you since I found out the truth. I have actually been angry with the one you hurt. I am ashamed to say that. To say, that this person you destroyed emotionally, physically, mentally was actually the one I was mad at. For not being able to get over this. Not being able to just get up, brush themselves off and go on with their life.

I now realize that your victim...and that is right she is your victim. The one you hunted down, hurt, devoured with your hate. Your victim is really still the person they were before all of this happened. Deep down, they have ceased to age from the moment you hurt them. They are like an injured bird. Afraid to fly because of the pain that was caused.  I am not a perfect person. I have made many mistakes. The one I most regret and not doing something more. Not taking it upon myself to try to help the one I love when I knew they were hurt. I did not try to help them heal, wrap my loving arms around them and help them learn to fly once again.

The person that they became is a facade. They were surviving. They were trying to find their safe place within their mind. You took that safe place away with your sickness. You do have a sickness. You are living your life, angry that someone had the audacity to "out" you and yet they are living within an emotional box. I have always felt this emotional connection to the one I love. Your actions have all but disconnected them from all they love. You forced them to find things to love that would take them away from reality.

To say I hate you would actually be letting you win. To say I want you to be hurt, far worse, if that is possible, than you have ever hurt anyone else is doing nothing but allowing myself to be abused by you as well. You will never read this.....but i hope, somehow that you will feel it. Feel the pain you have incurred. Not only to the actual victim, your victim, but to all those who love that person. So many casualties have been the result of your selfish decision.

Your life will never be normal because you will never be normal. I know you will live with the truth and be haunted by it for the rest of your life. Your denial only fueled the rage of those who have been affected by your demented view on life. I will pray that I will never come face to face with you again. Because if that should happen, I will lose myself to the rage. I will let go and allow the hatred to consume me so that you will suffer. I do not want to submit to that ugliness....so I write a letter, openly, for all those who I love to see. If I put this out there for the world, or whomever reads this, then I am able to deal with these emotions. I can not deny them any longer. My sweet loved one, the one you hurt, says they have forgiven you. What is so hard is I know they have not forgiven themselves even though there is nothing to forgive.

I will put all of my energy in helping this little bird, the one you all but destroyed, fly once again. I will use this contempt I have towards you to fuel my passion for building them up again. To see them a whole, happy person once again will be exactly what you deserve. For you to know that even though you tried to decimate her in every possible way, you failed. You are all about power...but you will not win this one. You will fail........and I will be happy. harsh? yes. I am a born again christian but this does not mean I will not resort to this srot of thing to protect those I love. I could not protect them from you back then....but I can and will now.


donna



The the one who was hurt.

.......i love you. I love who you are, who you were and who you will be. I will walk with you to the ledge and hold your hand and when you are ready, i will watch you soar to great heights. You will be able to look back at where you have been and rejoice. My love for you will never change.......no matter what.




*I will not be discussing this further with anyone other than the party involved. I will not allow this evil person anymore of my time or energy. So if you don't understand any of this I am very sorry....but maybe, you can see, how something bad can be MADE good. Sometimes our circumstances allow us to rise and grow beyond anything we ever could have been before. Everyone must use anything bad in their lives and rise above it.  God is very useful when it comes to this....He will have a hand out....hoping you grasp it so He can lift you out of the wreckage of your life and pull you to safety...to a beautiful life.