who I am

who am I

really who am I

Am I merely a mother, wife, daughter

Do I have substance

Do I contain the compassion that I wish to give

Do I give the benefit of the doubt when it is not earned

Do I have the drive to actually finish the book

When I am alone, why do I yearn for my kids,

When they are with me, why do I crave solitude

Why am I constantly seeking approval

Why do I act as if I dont care what people think, when in all actuality it is what I think about most often

Why do I think my smile is the only thing attractive about me

Why do I wish for greatness but never do anything to achieve it

Is there sincerity in my prayers

Is there cleverness in my jokes

How do I know where I want to be if I dont know where I am going

How do I find out where I am going if I dont know where I want to go

How do I forgive someone who is not sorry for the wrongs they have done

Are my children going to ever think of me as a friend

Are my parents and husband proud of me

Will I ever be able to accept myself for who I really am?

These are the things that I most often think about. Kind of crazy but that is who I am...crazy, mixed up but totally happy.